AU PAIR PANAMA COACH

I’m about to revive one of my deepest, craziest, dreams I’ve ever had…
It was so real…

First, I was outside my parents house pointing a gun to my dad and he was pointing a gun back at me… I was trying to defend my sister, can’t remember what they were arguing about but I was on here side… then we just stopped, we had a moment of clarity and realized we were family so we put the guns down… that was crazy…

Then I was at Las Tablas with my mom and her family at the main park celebrating carnivals… It was late at night, and we were all sitting in a circle.

Couldn’t recognize any of my relatives tho, but I remember I was next to my mom and fell asleep sitting in a chair. I slept so profoundly that I dreamt about fireworks falling all over us… then we had to find a tent to be safe… it felt so real!!

YES… I had a dream inside my dream…
I literally fell asleep in the middle of the carnival celebration and was funny because I woke up, and I was still sitting there, so I told my mom the dream I had about the fireworks falling over us all.

That’s funny: Actually I did that after I woke up from the whole dream on Friday so, I literally revealed this dream to my mother twice… are you following me? Good.

After that I got off the chair and apparently a cousin was selling street food so I headed over there to see what she was doing and to have a conversation…

Suddenly the scenario changes completely and I find myself teaching a dance class for Au Pairs somewhere in the United States, then I left that building walking… As I was walking I went past big halls and got lost, kept walking and found myself at a whole new and different escenario. It was like some kind of time-traveling hallways… so I got to a very fancy mall we have in Panama City, can’t actually tell which one, but everybody was well dressed, they were like wealthy people and I was slow walking looking everywhere, sweaty and very lost, wearing rehearsal clothing… and people were looking at me like—“what a weirdo”—I remember feeling embarrassed about it and I literally ran to the parking lot so no one could see me.

Then I’m at a car with Amber, my ex host mom, and with other two Au Pairs heading somewhere, but the road was tricky and full of obstacles… All I remember is that whoever was driving—I was only a passenger in the back seat—drove into a school and I said: “Watch the stairs!” But the car was designed to drive through the stairs… I could see how the car tires adjusted and drove over the stair handle bars, we were going up that building. I was tremendously impressed—“this is like some Harry Potter shit”— I said to myself…

Then I remember heading my parents’ house and on my way there I received a text from the friend of the guy of my dreams, was weird, we’ve never talked before…
When I got to my parents’ house, they were still celebrating carnivals, the house was full of soaked people, my dad was drunk of course, and in fact the guy of my dreams and his friend were in my house, waiting for me…

He was there… finally had the gut to come and see me… I couldn’t be happier…
He was sitting in a corner waiting for me… this was the first time we actually met in person…
So I walked towards him, as he was standing up… and we hugged… I hold him so tight that I could feel him… I can feel him right now as I’m writing this… as I was saying, I hugged him so tight that I could smell he’s sweat… and his perfect hair… I past my nose over his neck and then behind his ears, and then grabbed his face, I needed to make sure he was actually there, that’s why I wanted to smell him (damn I’m weird) —the longest hug I’ve ever given…
I realized he’s not as tall as I though… and that he’s thinner than he looks in pictures.
He not only hug me, he lifted me and I wrapped my legs around him… at the same time we kissed, we kissed like… as if we wanted to eat each other faces… we were so desperate, but nothing further happened as we were in front of everybody…

We could not care about people watching, but we did…
The idea of being together was crazy and impossible… so we just said good bye… and two minutes after that, our love story was published in all the tv news, newspapers and magazines (in a very old-fashion way). They published that this love story is never going to happen, not even in movies or theatre plays… I literally remember seeing the reporter’s face fromt that TV Channel saying that this love story was IMPOSSIBLE.

The end…

Oh… this dream was so vivid I can still feel his arms around me and smell his perfect hair…